Kinda just a therapy session..?

ok so i'm an idiot. last night i went to this party and met this guy jake who was just soo lovely and so hot and i completely just fell for him...we were flirting loads and i really liked him and he was being really suggestive too when one of his friends was like 'jake remember you have a girlfriend...' so i was kinda shocked and pretty disappointed..but then later he came up and was 'look i want to show you something' and took me behind the house (by this stage i was a little tipsy which slightly affected my judgement) and he kissed me. so i was like 'wait you have a girlfriend' (and i have been cheated on before and it hurt like hell so i didn't want to do that to another girl) but then he was like 'i won't tell if you don't' and he was just so lovely and wonderful and then i started kissing him back and we ended up doing quite a lot more than we should have (not but not really what a guy with a girlfriend should do). cont...